should have known.

only reason im up is because no one is home. and i hate being by myself. wish i had reliable friends. thank goodness for mallory i love that girl. 'its not my book...i just took a glance at itt!!!'-big clever. hehe too much fun.

i really kinda sorta counted on you. why do you do this? i dont get what i did to deserve it. just wish i could make it work with somebody you know? oh well.

my cell phone died again. verizon people have 2x4's up their asses and wont let me get a new one. go figure then stopped making the phone i have...because it has too many defects. who would have thought. so yeah...dont call it because i cant answer it...its full of pepsi. end of story.

my moms 6 or 7 hours away...and yet she still gets to me.

i rush home to shower and go into OC for church. i end up sitting in afternoon traffic for 2 hours. and i get bitched at. i didnt make it and like missed the whole thing. i come home clean up dog shit because my brother is a idiot and wont take the dog outside to go to the bathroom. do 2 loads of laundry...and still more to do. cleaned up around the house. got the mail. and still the bitching continues. no matter what i do it doesnt matter. so why should i do anything at all. cant wait. next year everyone and im not coming back. anyone gonna miss me? ;)

and another thing...why do people constantly set themselves up for disappointment? when they know whats gonna happen. nothing ever works out the way you want it to.

just wondering

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